^^ Four generations of Helvestons
It has been a while, I know. After Ellie and I spent time adjusting to having the heat on in the house (what I thought were colds at the time turned out not to be - thank goodness!) we hit the ground running into Thanksgiving and we took time to just enjoy being with family. I didn't snap a lot of pictures, or try and write down everything that was happening. I loved just relaxing and filing our sweet time with family into my memory bank. I've also gotten a jump start on "the busiest time of the year," and pretty much have everything done now so we can relax and really enjoy it as it is - one of the most wonderful times of the year.
I love Thanksgiving. I love the food, I love the lazy day, and I love the family time. Last Saturday, we took a short trip down to Charlotte to spend time with Wesley's family and then my family came up to Raleigh with Ellie's great-grandparents from Florida. They hadn't seen her since August so it was fun for them to see how much she had grown and how much more engaged she is now. It is amazing how fast the time is going by. Even the days don't seem slow. I blink and it's already time to lay down at night. I don't ever remember time going by this fast before.
Now, more than ever before my heart is full of gratitude for, well, everything. Maybe it's partly because I am so grateful that we got through Ellie's scary birth and two months in the NICU and we are both really really good, or partly because I have slowed down my life and don't feel rushed. I think mostly its because for the first time in as long as I can remember I am not anxiously anticipating what is coming next. I am just really enjoying the now. Wesley and I's years of infertility ultimately taught us to find joy in the season of life we are living. It took us a long time to learn that lesson, and I honestly don't think I could have learned it any other way. But I am so glad that we did.
I am so thankful for the wonderful man that is my husband. I love loving him and I love seeing him fall more in love with Ellie everyday. I am so thankful for the best family and friends that we have. We know they love us, have supported us, and will always be there for us. I am thankful for this sweet, special, and beautiful baby girl that has blessed our lives immeasurably. We feel so privileged to be her parents - to love and nurture her, to teach her not only how to grow up but also to make sure she knows just how wonderful she is. She has the most heart melting and catching smile. I tell her everyday that her smile is someday going to change the world. And I know it will. In the very least, it has already changed ours.